More often than not, when going through a struggle we get pretty focused on the struggle instead of the One who can guide us through the struggle.
Thanks for joining us for Monday’s Message with Abigail Rice and Trench Classes United. Today’s message is a great poem of pleas in a struggle.
Lord, I long for You
I desire You
I crave the intimacy that I know can be there
Yet I sit here and stare
Into the endless abyss
Of deception
and myths
Making me believe
I am no good for this
I don’t wake early
I feel the guilt
Agony
and despair
Because I care
and I know there is something better out there
Yet my human ways
Of watching netflix
Staying up late
And choosing sleep
Over the most important thing I will ever need
Gets to me
Eats at me
I want to be better
I desire to write this letter
Not because it’s easy
But because He sees me
He sees my heart
He sees my home
and He knows
Without Him
I lose all hope
So where do I go?
Where do I run?
and how do I become a person of such
Discipline
and desire?
When all I feel
Is thrown in the fire
Despite the guilt
Despite the shame
I have no one to blame
and my God is the same
Yesterday
and today
His forgiveness remains
and though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
He is with me
Standing next to me in the furnace of fire
Helping me rip out my hearts fleshly desires
and making me change
The days ahead are dark
and I have no room for guilt
I have no time for shame
The time to get right
Is right now
For soon every knee will bow
and every tongue will confess
That Jesus Christ is Lord
and I attest
That nothing but His love
and His Word will be left
So I will stand
Against the powers of this present darkness
Praying life into this heart
Until I can truly embark
and rest in His grace
For day by day
We are slain
and it us up to us to choose
Who we let win the game…
